LOSE YOURSELF

SO HERE I AM...STUCK IN THE EVER STATIONARY POSITION OF BEING A TORMENTED UNDERGRADUATE.YES,I'M LIVING IN A TOTAL NEW ENVIRONMENT NOW....AND I'M TRYING MY BEST TO FIT IN.THE POINT IS..THINGS WERE BETTER AND CLEARER BACK IN THE OLD DAYS AT MY HOMETOWN..PEOPLE SEEMS TO BE...ERM..MORE REAL..AND THEY SEE,INTERACT AND FEEL ME IN A TRUTHFUL WAY.WELL,NOT HERE..HAIZ..IN MY SUPPOSED 'SECOND LIFE',EVERYTHING TAKES A TWISTING TURN AS I WAS TREATED IN A COMPLETELY NEW WAY...TALK ABOUT REGENERATION TREATMENT AYY..ZZZ...ALRIGHT,BACK IN MY HOMETOWN,FRIENDSHIP IS IN ITS PRIMARY RAW APPROACHABLE STATE,YOU'LL SUBCONSCIOUSLY DEVELOPE THAT SENSE OF HONESTY BETWEEN EACH OTHER...AND I LIKE IT THAT WAY.UNFORTUNATELY,THAT DOESN'T HAPPEN NOW...EVERYONE IS BEHAVING LIKE VIRTUAL PROJECTIONS HERE...AND I CAN'T PUT THE BLAME ON ANYONE AT ALL EXCEPT ME..AS EVERYONE'S DIFFERENT....THEY ARE ALL EVERYDAY PEOPLE COME FROM ALL WALKS OF LIFE.YES,CALL ME SENTIMENTAL...CALL ME SENSITIVE...I DON'T CARE.I'M ACTUUALLY STRUGGLING NOW...TO RETAIN THE ORIGINAL ME...THE DELON THAT EVERYONE ONCE LOVED AND CHERISHED...AND I'M TRYING MY BEST NOT TO CROSS THE BOUNDARIES...I MAY BE WEAK SOME TIME..BUT I'M NOT THAT VULNERABLE.ALL I NEED IS JUST THAT TINGE OF CONFIDENCE AND TRUST...FROM YOU...

MY ROOMMATE

HEY THERE,SO HERE I AM IN MY ROOM...LISTENING TO MY GRUDGING ROOMMATE ON HOW I NEVER BLOG ABOUT HIM IN MY POSTS.HE TOLD ME THAT BLOGGING ABOUT A GUY IS GAY..HOWEVER,WITH HIM AS EXCEPTION...LOLZ..XD.NO,I'M NOT GAY..LOLZ...THIS IS THE 'TRIBUTE' TO ONE OF THE BEST ROOMMATES YOU'LL EVER HAD IN UNI-LIFE...LET'S JUST TREAT THIS AS A TOKEN OF APPRECIATION.SO HIS NAME IS 'D'.....AND HE'S A PRO-JOKER....THE VERY LIVING ESSENCE IN MY EVERY KL FRIENDS.OH,HE'S A 'BANANA' TOO...HALF AT LEAST.SO HOW WAS LIFE WITH HIM?NAH,IT WAS FUN...AND EXTREMELY FORTUNATE TO HAVE SUCH 'NICE' ROOMY....HE'S GOOD IN SWEEPING FLOOR...HE'S GOOD IN BOILING WATER...AND MOST OF ALL..HE'S GOOD IN BEING A TRUE FRIEND...YES,THAT'S A COMPLIMENT FOR YOU..SO PLEASE NOTE THAT DOWN...UNLESS YOU STILL TREAT THHIS AS ANOTHER DELON'S CLASSIC SARCASTIC REMARK..LOLZ...KUDOS FOR YOU TO BE THE LUCKY ONE..SHARING A ROOM WITH A TOTAL FREAK/LOSER..XD.LOLZ.XD

INSECURITY ISSUE

SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT....EVERYBODY'S LOOKING AT ME....LIKE I'M SOME SORT OF EXTRA TERRESTRIAL FITTING IN THE CROWD....THESE UNFAMILIAR FACES MAY HAVE VILE VICIOUS INTENTION BEHIND THOSE REENACTED SCEPTICAL LOOKS...SCHEMERS...A BUNCH OF SCHEMERS....I'M JUST A PERSON...OR RATHER A FISH OUT OF WATER..TRYING HARD TO BLEND IN AND BE MYSELF.DON'T JUDGE ME...AS I'M JUST A WRONG GUY STUCKED IN THE WRONG POSITION AT THE WRONG TIME...YES,I'M IN THE WRONG PLACE..TRYING HARD TO MAKE EVERYTHING RIGHT...AND I'M DOING IT NOW...XD.BIG CONGRATZ TO WINSTON(ONE OF THE BESTIES..)IN GETTING HIS RIGHTFUL 'THRONE'..LOLZ..XD.

DREAM DREAM DREAM

AS I'M WRITING THIS POST,I'M DOWN AT A COSY WARM AREA IN THE TUN SERI LANANG LIBRARY,THE LARGEST LIBRARY IN SOUTH-EAST ASIA..XD.SO HERE I AM SITTING ALONE AT A DESK BESIDE THE WINDOW PANE..STARING AT THE THUNDER RAIN OUTSIDE.YES,I CAN'T GET BACK TO MY COLLEGE BECAUSE IT'S RAINING CATS AND DOGS OUTSIDE.APART FROM CHECKING MY FB,I HAVE TO DOWNLOAD SOME MATH NOTES FROM THE ACADEMY WEBSITE..HMM,HOPE THE RAIN STOPS..GOTTA GET BACK TO COLLEGE FOR DINNER..FREEZING+STARVING=LIFE..SO JUST LET IT BE..XD.

GETTIN OUT THE CITY

GETTING IN KL CITY WAS EASY...GETTIN OUT WAS NOT.YEP,I'M NOW BLOGGING BACK AT MY HOMETOWN...HAH,HOME SWEET HOME.UNI-LIFE HAS BEEN TERRIBLY BORING...HAIZ,I'M ALREADY GETTING SICK NOW JUST BY THINKING ABOUT GOING BACK TO UNI IN A COUPLE OF HOURS..LOLZ.XD.ALRIGHT,THE DAY BEFORE YESTERDAY WAS FRIDAY..XD.IT WAS 3.OOP.M....AS I'M ALL GEARED UP TO GET OUT OF BANGI TO THE CITY CENTRE TO PURCHASE MY BUS TICKET..AND MEET UP WITH MY SIS AT THE SAME TIME..XD.IT TOOK ME TWO FREAKING SWEATY STICKY HOURS TO GET TO THE BUS TICKET COUNTER...TOO BAD,TICKETS FOR FRIDAY WERE ALL SOLD OUT..SO I BOUGHT YESTERDAY'S MORNING INSTEAD..XD.YES,IT TOOK ME AGAIN ANOTHER HALF HOUR TO GET TO KLCC...AND I CAN TELL YOU THAT I'M EXTREMELY EXHAUSTED..XD.WAITING ALL ALONE AT STARBUCKS KLCC,I CAN'T HELP BUT TO FEEL DIZZY..OR WOOZY..HMM.GOTTA NEED SOMETHING TO BOOST UP MY MIND AND SOUL..LOLZ...WENT FOR A 3D SHOW CALLED 'DESPICABLE ME' WITH MY SIS....HAD A PORK BURGER NEAR MY SIS'PLACE...BY THE TIME I'M ASLEEP,IT WAS ALREADY 1A.M. IN THE MORNING...MINUS 8 HOURS BEFORE BOARDING THE BUS...YES,I STILL HAVE THAT INFINITESIMAL STRENGTH TO BLOG ABOUT THIS..BECAUSE THIS IS MY LOG ENTRY...AND THE BLOG NEED MORE UPDATES..HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU GUYS SOON..ESPECIALLY THE BESTIES..TILL THEN...GOOD MORNING!!!..XD.

GOOD NIGHT AND GOOD LUCK

HI THERE!!!YES,I'LL BE LEAVING MY HOMETOWN SHORTLY TO PURSUIT MY TERTIARY EDUCATION...YES,NEW LIFE AHEAD..AND SOMETIMES,YOU'LL FEEL THAT IT'S NO FUN LEAVING EVERYTHING OLD AND FAMILIAR BEHIND...IN ORDER TO RESTART EVERYTHING...AND I DO MEAN EVERYTHING...NEW ASPECTS,NEW RULES...AND A NEW DECADE...SOUNDS EUPHORIC???NAH,NOT SO...NOT BEFORE THE ADVENT OF SLEEPLESS NIGHTS AND TROUBLESOME DEPRESSION..HAIZ..XD.DAMN,I SHOULD BE POSITIVE...SO HERE I AM....I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE CAN BRING...BUT I DO HAVE HOPES THAT IT'LL BECOME BETTER....OR AT LEAST..NOT BITTER..XD.MY FACEBOOK ACCOUNT AND BLOGS WON'T BE ACTIVE FOR SOMETIME..SO EXPECT THE RETURN OF DELON ANYTIME LATER...BUT NOT SOONER..XD.ANYWAYS,TO ALL THE UNDERGRADUATES....THE FUTURE IS HERE...MAN YOURSELF UP..AND DEAL WITH IT....SO,ALL THE BEST...AND GOOD LUCK...ADIEUS..XD.DELON...TEMPORARILY SIGNING OFF..XD.

THE SOCIETY

SOMETHING...SOMETHING DEEPLY DISTURBED ME TODAY....I'VE DISCOVERED ONE OF THE PROBLEMS THAT I HAVE TO FACE..NOT JUST IN TERTIARY EDUCATION...BUT IN MY FUTURE WORKING LIFE TOO..XD.HAIZ,WE'RE LIVING IN AN IMPERFECT SOCIETY..FILLED WITH SOCIAL ILLNESS..COMPLICATED(SOMETIMES LETHAL..IF YOU GOT LUCKY..XD.)HUMAN RELATIONSHIPS...AND POLITICS.THESE ARE JUST MERE MAJOR COMPONENTS TO COME.THE REAL DEAL THAT SETS THE DIFFERENCE APART IS HOW THE HIERARCHY DIVIDES THE PEOPLE APART..XD.ON ONE SIDE,WE HAVE THE RICH DUDES...WHILE ON THE OTHER..THERE'S THIS BATCH OF MODERATE/POOR DUDES..XD.NOW HERE'S THE DEAL,WHEN YOU'RE RICH,FAMOUS AND INFLUENTIAL..THE WORLD WILL TREAT YOU DIFFERENTLY.RICH PEOPLE HAVE MIDAS TOUCH...EVERY CRAP THEY TOUCH WILL TURN INTO GOLD..AND THEIR FART WILL SMELL LIKE ROSES.SO,HOW ABOUT THE OTHER SIDE,NAH...THE PEOPLE DON'T REALLY GIVE A DAMN TO THEM...THEY SPAT ON THEM...AND TAKE A ****ON THEM...I KNOW..THE WORDS ARE DISTURBING..BUT YET..THIS IS REALITY..I GUESS...LIFE IS FILLED WITH PROS AND CONS,GOOD AND BAD,THE IMPRESSED AND THE OPPRESSED..AND I'VE JUST GOTTA ACCEPT THAT.DON'T EVER TALK ABOUT MORAL VALUES AND HUMAN INTEGRITY...AS THEY ARE PRETTY MUCH DEAD NOW.I KNOW..I'M PRETTY MUCH STRESSED-OUT HERE...BUT AT LEAST I'M NOT THAT DELUSIONAL..HAIZ...LIFE'S GOTTA GO...ALL I HAVE TO DO NOW..IS TO LIVE IN THE MOMENT..AND BE A NOBLE MAN MYSELF..IN THIS CORRUPTED WORLD...DAMN..

(EARTH IS A DANGEROUS PLACE..I RATHER STAY IN MARS..THANK YOU..XD.)