LOSE YOURSELF

SO HERE I AM...STUCK IN THE EVER STATIONARY POSITION OF BEING A TORMENTED UNDERGRADUATE.YES,I'M LIVING IN A TOTAL NEW ENVIRONMENT NOW....AND I'M TRYING MY BEST TO FIT IN.THE POINT IS..THINGS WERE BETTER AND CLEARER BACK IN THE OLD DAYS AT MY HOMETOWN..PEOPLE SEEMS TO BE...ERM..MORE REAL..AND THEY SEE,INTERACT AND FEEL ME IN A TRUTHFUL WAY.WELL,NOT HERE..HAIZ..IN MY SUPPOSED 'SECOND LIFE',EVERYTHING TAKES A TWISTING TURN AS I WAS TREATED IN A COMPLETELY NEW WAY...TALK ABOUT REGENERATION TREATMENT AYY..ZZZ...ALRIGHT,BACK IN MY HOMETOWN,FRIENDSHIP IS IN ITS PRIMARY RAW APPROACHABLE STATE,YOU'LL SUBCONSCIOUSLY DEVELOPE THAT SENSE OF HONESTY BETWEEN EACH OTHER...AND I LIKE IT THAT WAY.UNFORTUNATELY,THAT DOESN'T HAPPEN NOW...EVERYONE IS BEHAVING LIKE VIRTUAL PROJECTIONS HERE...AND I CAN'T PUT THE BLAME ON ANYONE AT ALL EXCEPT ME..AS EVERYONE'S DIFFERENT....THEY ARE ALL EVERYDAY PEOPLE COME FROM ALL WALKS OF LIFE.YES,CALL ME SENTIMENTAL...CALL ME SENSITIVE...I DON'T CARE.I'M ACTUUALLY STRUGGLING NOW...TO RETAIN THE ORIGINAL ME...THE DELON THAT EVERYONE ONCE LOVED AND CHERISHED...AND I'M TRYING MY BEST NOT TO CROSS THE BOUNDARIES...I MAY BE WEAK SOME TIME..BUT I'M NOT THAT VULNERABLE.ALL I NEED IS JUST THAT TINGE OF CONFIDENCE AND TRUST...FROM YOU...