MATERIALISTIC WORLD

I'M CURRENTLY DROWNED IN THIS MATERIALISTIC WORLD.STUDYING IN THE LAND OF GOLDEN OPPORTUNITIES,YOU CAN'T HELP BUT TO GET EXPOSED TO MANY DREAMS AND WANTS...MOSTLY UNNECESSARY.CALL ME SHALLOW...OR CALL ME A TYPICAL 'ONLY HUMAN'..AS I'M HOPELESSLY ATTRACTED TO THE CURRENT CONCEPT TRENDS OF DOWNGRADED HUMAN CHASING BLINDLY FOR FORTUNE AND SUCCESS.I'M LIVING IN THE MONEY-ORIENTED ERA,AND I SWEAR THAT I GOTTA GIVE UP SOMETHING IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE IN ORDER TO GET MOVING ON.I DON'T CARE ABOUT MY LEGACY....ALL I EVER NEED IS THAT SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT.YERPZ,I'M LIVING LIFE RIGHT NOW YET IT'S STILL FAR FROM THE WORD 'LAVISH'.THERE'S DESIGNER-LABELED BOUTIQUES,GOOD FOOD,NICE-PIMPED-OUT RIDES AND EXPENSIVE PRODUCTS AROUND ME..AND THESE CAN REALLY SERVE AS THAT MAJOR SOURCE OF INSPIRATION..IN MOTIVATING ME TO DO WHAT'S RIGHT FROM WHAT'S WRONG.HOWEVER,I WON'T BETRAY MY CONSCIENCE AS I ALWAYS WILL BE A PRISONER OF IT.YOU'VE GOT A CHOICE DELON..AND YOU GOTTA MAKE IT UNMISTAKABLY THE RIGHT ONE AS YOUR FINAL INITIATIVE..IT'S NOW OR NEVER.SO,I MADE THE CHOICE...OF LETTING YOU GO...HAIZ..

M.U.S.I.C.

MUSIC...IS NO DOUBT THE MAIN SOURCE OF ENERGY IN EMPOWERING MY DAILY LIFE...I'VE LOVED MUSIC MORE THAN ANYTHING(EXCEPT,FAMILY,MOVIES AND FRIENDS..I GUESS..XD).WELL,I'M INTO INDIE EXOTIC MUSIC,AND YES,ALL THE SONGS MUST BE IN ENGLISH..AS AS A 'BANANA',I DON'T OFTEN REALLY LISTEN TO MANDARIN/CANTON POP.I DON'T HAVE ANY SPECIFIC STATEMENTS IN DEFINING MY FAVOURITE GENRE,ANYTHING GOOD FOR THE EARS WOULD BE JUST FINE..XD.IN MY WORLD,I HARDLY FIND ANYONE WHO LISTENS TO THE SAME SORT OF MUSIC AS I DO...AND IT'S HARD..(MY ROOMMATE ACTUALLY CLAIMS THAT MY EXOTIC YET WEIRD TASTE IN MUSIC TO BE FREAKY..YES,I DID WEIRDED HIM OUT..BIG-TIME).IT'S JUST THAT MUSIC IS LIKE...SOUL TO ME...IT REFLECTS THE INTROSPECTIVE SIDE OF ME,MYSELF AND I..AND I LIKE IT...AS WITHIN THAT TEMPORARY IMPULSIVE SENSE OF ZEN,I WAS ABLE TO FIND A PIECE OF MYSELF...A SYMPHONIC FORM OF MYSELF DISSOLVED IN THE MELODY OF NOTES...AND I'LL EVENTUALLY LEARN SOMETHING DEEP DOWN WITHIN ME.I'VE NEVER BEEN SO CLOSE TO MYSELF,IT'S LIKE MUSIC CONNECTS TO THE OTHER PART OF ME...A PART OF ME WHERE NO ONE CAN EVER UNLOCK AND REVEAL THE TREASURE-WORTH INFORMATION WITHIN.BACK TO REALITY,I'M NOT REALLY AN EXPERT IN EXPRESSING MYSELF...WHILE THERE'S SOME HIDDEN TALENT IN ME,IT'S JUST BETTER TO KEEP IT TO MYSELF AS NOWADAYS IT'S BEEN CRAZY AND HECTIC...AND A LOT FOR ME HANDLE...MORE THAN I CAN BARGAIN FOR..XD.SO,NO MATTER HOW LOW IS THE AMOUNT OF MAINSTREAM MUSIC IN MY PLAYLIST,AND NO MATTER HOW INDIE IT CAN BE..I HEREBY THANK GOD FOR CREATING SUCH POSITIVE DRUG FOR ME TO GET ADDICTED TO..M.U.S.I.C.=Make Ur Soul In Charge.....ONE LOVE...XD.

EUPHORIA

THERE'LL BE SOMETIMES IN YOUR LIFE WHEN YOU'LL JUST FEEL SO DAMN CHEERFUL...AND EVEN YOUR FRIENDS CAN'T STAND YOUR EXCESSIVELY POSITIVE AURA.I'M NOW IN THAT POSITION..AND I'M FEELING SO DAMN GOOD...XD.I'M NOT QUITE SURE OF WHY I'M FEELING SO ECSTATIC AND EUPHORIC..MAYBE IT'S THAT SOMETHIN'SOMETHIN...ERM,OMINOUS.YES,I'M VERY HAPPY NNOW..THANK YOU...AND I DON'T NEED A REASON OR YOUR PERMISSION TO BE THAT WAY...MAYBE IT'S ME...OR MAYBE IT'S YOU...I DON'T KNOW...I JUST WISH THAT THIS FEELING CAN BE UNSTOPPABLE..LIKE..ETERNALLY FOREVER.NICE....XD.

(P.S.I'M SO ORIGINAL....I'M FEELIN' IT..XD.)

REDEMPTION

SO YESTERDAY I WENT OUT WITH ONE OF MY BFFs/EX-CLASSMATES,AND MAN,I FELT GOOD.THERE HAS BEEN A LOT OF THINGS THAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME SINCE LAST MONTH,AND THESE ARE STILL HARD TOUGH TIMES,SO IT'S NICE TO HAVE A LISTENER..AN ANGEL IN ITS TRUEST FORM THAT CAN HEAR CLEARLY AND THROUGHLY OF WHAT I'M SAYING.WE WERE BARELY DIGGING UP OUR SOULS JUST FOR THAT SENSE OF BELONGING,AND YES,WE SEE EACH OTHER.EVERYONE AROUND ME HAS MOVED ON,SOME HAS CHANGED INTO THE UNEXPECTED...WHILE OTHERS ARE STILL DRIFTING IN THEIR OWN PATH OF DARKNESS.THANKS TO HER,I'VE DISCOVERED THE REMNANTS OF THAT PART OF ME...THE REAL ME...WHICH I NEARLY LOSE IT...SUBCONSCIOUSLY.XD.THE PRESENCE OF YOU GUYS HAS MADE ME REALIZE THAT I'M STILL ME..THE OLD ME....AND I'VE NEVER CHANGED...IT'S JUST THE MATTER OF ENVIRONMENT.

(P.S.YES,WE'RE LIVING A SHITTY LIFE NOW...AND YES,IT SUCKS..XD.)

DELON VS. DELON

NOW YOU SEE,NOBODY IS PERFECT IN THIS WORLD.ERM,FOR THOSE OF YA'LL WHO DON'T QUITE GET TO KNOW ME WELL YET...I HAVE ISSUES..DOUBLE-PERSONALITY ISSUES.ERM,LET'S JUST SAY THAT BENEATH THE ONE WHO DONNED THE CHEERFUL MASK IS A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PERSON.IT'S JUST THAT HAVING SCHIZOPHRENIA REALLY DO BRING YOU A LOT OF ADVANTAGES.YOU'LL GET TO 'LIVE' IN YOUR OWN FANTASY WITHOUT TAKING THE SHIT OF THE OTHERS...YOU ORCHESTRATED YOUR OWN MASTERPIECES OF SYMPHONY...AND YOU'LL BE LESS HASSLED THAN BEFORE.THE POINT IS,THERE'S ANOTHER DEEP PART OF ME FILLED WITH UNIMAGINABLE SINS AND IRREVERANT THOUGHTS THAT ME MYSELF HAVE TO WRESTLE...DAILY.DON'T WORRY,I'M NOT ABNORMAL..JUST SLIGHTLY DISTURBED.HOWEVER,I'LL GIVE IN ONCE I'M AT THE BRINK OF TOTAL ZERO-TOLERANCE...AND THE EFFECTS CAN BE HARMFUL.APART FROM THAT.I STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT I'M ACTUALLY NOT ALONE...AS THERE ARE MUCH MORE PSYCHOLOGICALLY-CHALLENGED PEOPLE OUT THERE WAITING TO BE SEEN,KNOWN AND..CHALLENGED..XD.I'M ONLY HUMAN,AND I HAVE EMOTIONS...SO DO YOU TOO.SO WHEN YOU ARE PUT IN A SITUATION WHERE YOU MUST UNLEASH THE OTHER WILD SIDE OF YOU...YOU JUST GOTTA DO IT...AS THE WORLD'S NOTHING BUT A TYRANNICAL PLACE.SO,HOT-SHOT(YES,YOU..WINKY WINK..XD.)....NEXT TIME IF YOU'RE TRYING TO START A CONVERSATION...DO MAKE SURE WHO YOU'RE DEALING WITH..BEFORE THE CONVERSATION IS SO OVER..XD.

A MONTH.

ONE MONTH...IT'S AMAZING OF HOW ONE FREAKING MONTH CAN CHANGE THE WHOLE UNIVERSE..EVERYTHING AROUND ME IS CHANGING..AND EVOLVING.PEOPLE ARE MANOUVREING THEIR OWN LIFE ON A TOTALLY DIFFERENT PATH.IT'S JUST STRANGE TO FIGURE OUT THAT TIME AS A WEIRD TOOL USED TO BE FILLED WITH WONDERFUL THINGS...IT'S LIKE WITHIN A MONTH..I'M IN A NEW PLACE,NEW ENVIRONMENT WITH NEW FRIENDS...WHILE ALL THE PIVOTAL ELEMENTS FROM MY PREVIOUS LIFE ARE SLOWLY FADING AWAY.SO HERE I AM,BLOGGING WHILE LOOKING AT THE BRIGHT STARS UP UPON THE SKY,WONDERING HOW ARE YOU GUYS DOING ON THE OTHER PARTS OF THE WORLD.IT'S JUST THAT THIS PURE ADRENALINE-RUSH OF PECULIAR SENSE HAS PUT ME IN AN OTHER WORLDY WORLD,A WORLD WHERE THE REST OF THEM HAS DISCOVERED THEIR OWN PASSION AND NICHE...WHILE I'M STILL STUCKED ON THE STATIONARY POSITION.SO,IN ONE FREAKING MY MONTH,I'VE F-ED UP MY LIFE BADLY,LOOLZ...SO HOW ABOUT YOURS??..AND IN ONE MONTH TIME,I HAVE TAKEN THE BOLDEST STEP OF ALL BY CHECKING OUT WHAT'S HAPPEN TO YOU GUYS...WHO TURNS OUT TO BE JUST FINE...BUT I CAN STILL SEE THAT ABSTRACT SENSE OF RELUCTANCE..DON'T SEEM TO KNOW WHY..BUT IT'S JUST MY INTUITION..XD.IN ONE MONTH TIME,SOMEONE HAS SUFFERED FROM PHYSICAL CHANGES TOO(LOOLZ,IT'S NOT PUBERTY..ZZZZZ..),SOMEONE HAS FELL IN LOVE BUT GOT HIMSELF/HERSELF HEARTBROKEN,SOMEONE HAS SIGNED HIM/HERSELF INTO SOMETHING THAT HE/SHE HAS NEVER ONCE EXPECTED COMING ALONG,SOMEONE HAS EVEN ACTUALLY CHOSE THE IRREVERSIBLE PATH OF LEAVING THEIR LOVED ONES IN ORDER TO ACCOMPLISH THEIR OWN ALTERED MINDSET.HOWEVER,FORTUNATELY THERE ARE STILL SOME RETAINED ORIGINALITIES...AS EVERYONE'S BELIEF IS PRETTY MUCH STILL THE SAME..YES,I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU.ALRIGHT,ENOUGH WITH THE BS,I CAN'T DENY THAT I HAVEN'T CHANGE IN ANY LIFE ASPECTS..BUT ONE THING'S FOR SURE...MY EVERLASTING ETERNAL LOVE FOR YOU IS PRETTY MUCH STEADFAST AND STRONG...THAT'S ALL..LET'S SEE HOW THE SECOND MONTH WORKS...CAN'T WAIT TO BE WITH YOU AGAIN..XD

SECOND LIFE

THINGS DEFINITELY TAKE A DRASTIC CRITICAL TURN NOW....I'VE MADE A PROMISE OF NOT MAKING THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN..HOWEVER,I CAN'T VOUCH FOR THAT NOW...AS EVERYTHING JUST FELL APART.CAN YOU IMAGINE YOU'RE IN THE MIDDLE OF A MAJOR DISASTER...AS ALL THE SCENARIO NEEDS ARE JUST MERE SECONDS TO GO FROM WORST TO A TOTAL SHITSTORM..I'M EXTREMELY TIRED OF REMINISCING WHERE I SCREWED MYSELF UP SO BADLY...AND I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF IT.THERE'S A LOT OF LUCKY PEOPLE OUT THERE,SOME MAY GET THEIR SECOND SHOT AT SOMETHING SO IMPORTANT TILL A POINT WHERE THEY WOULD KILL TO HAVE IT..WHILE OTHERS WILL BE THE FORGOTTEN...KICKED,SPAT,PUNCHED AND LEFT FOR DEAD IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WARZONE.THE WORLD'S LIKE THIS,NOTHING'S FAIR AND SQUARE...AND THE EVER ELUSIVE SITUATION OF 'YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'VE GOT TILL IT'S GONE' IS FACING EXTINCTION.YES,I HAVE A LOT OF NEW FRIENDS HERE..BUT BENEATH THOSE SMILING FACES AND HAPPY EXPRESSIONS LIES AN OLD SOUL INSIDE,STRUGGLING HARD TO UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF BEING ALONE...I'VE NEVER FELT SO HOLLOW BEFORE..NO,I DON'T NEED COMPANY..I JUST NEED SPACE...SPACE WHERE I CAN DO WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO..AND DESIGNED TO DO.IF I HAVE A NOBLE CHOICE,I WOULD RATHER BE A NOBODY RIGHT NOW...OR AN INVISIBLE MAN,AVOIDING EVIL GLANCES AND SINISTER THOUGHTS.HOWEVER,IT'S TOO LATE NOW,WHAT HAS TO BE DONE MUST BE DONE..AS THE DAMAGE IS TOO HARD TO BE REPAIRED.

(P.S.YOU ARE MY ONLY GUIDANCE NOW...SO PLEASE SHOW ME THE CORRECT WAY TO REDEMPTION..I BEG YOU..)