THE INSPIRED AND THE DEFECTED

HAVE I EVER TELL YOU WHAT'S IT TO FEEL LIKE TO LOOK AT THINGS IN A COMPLETELY NEW PERSPECTIVE??NO,THE RESULTS WON'T BE DEVASTATING...BUT SHOCKING IT IS.I'VE FOUND MYSELF IN THIS POSITION OF BEING OVERLY-EARNEST...MY SELF-ESTEEM AND DIGNITY WERE ALREADY DEAD AND LONG GONE...MAYBE THIS LIFE ISN'T AS FUN AS THE PREVIOUS..OR MAYBE THESE CHANGES ARE FOR GOOD.I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHO I AM NOW...OR RATHER WHO AM I.QUOTE ME,I DON'T NEED NO PERMISSION TO TELL ME WHAT'S RIGHT FROM WRONG..AND WHAT'S WRONG FROM RIGHT.FACT IS,MY WORLD IS NOW THROWN INTO A TOTAL SICK FIESTA OF FREAKS..AND I'M DEFINITELY THE CLOWN OF THE FESTIVAL.ALL OF ME...ALL OF MY LOW-LIFE THINKINGS..ALL OF MY INSIPID IDEAS...AND EVEN ALL OF MY LIFE...ARE IN DEEP NEED OF EMERGENCY EVASION...AND NO,HELP IS NOT ON THE WAY.SURPRISINGLY,I FOUND THAT THERE'S STILL A TINGE OF HOPE.....IN FINDING THAT MISSING PUZZLE PIECE..BUT STILL,I'M NOT SURE WHETHER IT FITS OR NOT.IT SUCKS..SERIOUSLY...TO GO THROUGH CHANGES THAT AFFECTED ME,MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS.IT'SNOT THAT I CAN'T TAKE A PUNCH IN MY LIFE..BUT SOMETIMES YOU JUST CAN'T DEFEND YOURSELF..HAIZ.IN THE MEANTIME,ALL I CAN DO IS TO APOLOGISE...TO EVERYONE OF YOU...OF BEARING HIGH HOPES IN ME...AND OF PLANTING HUGE SEED OF EXPECTATION IN ME...I'M SO SORRY...I FAILED YOU.